noun: the ability to see, hear, or become aware of something through the senses
I have had this fantasy of having my car clean, my house clean, and my nails done all at the same time for as long as I can remember. I know this is possible if I take my car to a car wash, hire a maid, and go to a day spa. But that would be cheating. I’m talking doing it all myself, which now takes it down to possible, but not probable.
I used to lie in bed at night going over my day hour by hour counting all the things I did not get accomplished. Some things not finished, others not even started. Things like cleaning, shopping, organizing, bill paying, gardening, and the laundry…don’t even get me started on the laundry! I sort clothes, wash them, dry them, fold them, put them away, except when they have to be ironed. Not including linens, rugs, pool towels, and the like. The laundry alone is hours a day! Like the shopping, where I make a list, drive to the store, load up the shopping basket, put everything on the conveyor belt, load it back into the basket, then load it into my car, then unload it from the car into the house, then put it all away. Are you kidding me? Again, hours of procedures. Seriously, how can that not be interrupted? I have not been able to feel “caught up” with my life in between driving kids to schools and activities, planning birthdays and holidays, doctors and dentists and orthodontist appointments, for decades. The expectation of peace and sanity has been a bit unrealistic.
But, as the children grow up and move on peace has become more feasible. Having no regrets and amazed I survived the last couple of years I see things a bit differently. Now I go to bed, go over my day, and count all the things I did accomplish. I made a delicious dinner, I did five loads of laundry, I got the car washed. Okay, okay the car washed, the house clean, and my nails done are never going to all happen on the same day. But maybe in the same week?! These days I’m feeling very accomplished. I kind of like that about myself…having a clear perception. Even though it has shifted.
“Change the way you look at things and the things you look at change.”
Wayne W. Dyer