adjective: not settling an issue; (of a person) not having or showing the ability to make decisions quickly and effectively
I’m not sure when it happened? Once upon a time I was decisive! I knew exactly what I wanted, no apologies. And then something happened. Life got in the way. So many others to consider; time constraints, feelings, money, restrictions, consequences. Better to play it safe. Which is probably why indecision is often tied to regret.
Now don’t get me wrong, I like when things are well thought out. Those are some of my favorite things…a well thought out sentence, a home that flows nicely, when someone’s shoes match their bag. But one can look at Pinterest and Instagram, watch videos on YouTube, search and search and search for inspiration on the world wide web until indecision is completely daunting, which to me is terrifying. I think this is what Allen Ginsberg meant when he said, “I don’t do anything with my life except romanticize and decay with indecision.” I can definitely be guilty of that.
I can’t be strong-minded and indecisive at the same time. Make a freakin’ decision, already (I find myself saying…to myself). Because given the two choices I’d rather be strong-minded. And strong-willed, too. Confident in making decisions and self-assured in knowing that if it’s the wrong one, then I can fix it. Which is really just a little faith and self-reliance, don’t you think? I’ve got some decisions to make and I think I will do so purposefully and with determination. Letting go of indecision and moving forward come what may, with confidence…I kind of like that about myself.
“Evil draws its power from indecision and concern for what other people think.”
Pope Benedict XVI